What a _________ Day. (Fill in the blank)

It's not really a bad day, just annoying. First of all, sometimes a gal just wants a bong hit. Judge me if you want, but when there are lots of stresses and annoyances in life, a good binger just takes the edge off. There is none of that today. It's annoying.

Lily is teething something fierce. She has three teeth already. It was manageable. Today she has been whining and crying randomly all day because her top teeth are coming in. I feel really bad for her being in pain, but because I am not used to her being unhappy... I feel really irritated by it. I feel like a bad mother for saying that. I just can't take non-stop whining and crying. It makes my mind feel chaotic. Also, for some reason she insists on crawling on this brick hearth we have. It has a wood burning stove on and I am so terrified she is going to hurt herself, but she continues to crawl on it instead of the floor. I wonder if she likes the feel of cold brick. Earlier today, she found a tube of old diaper cream while her teeth were hurting and she held it up to me, and then she started chewing on it... Like it was the Orajel tube. Hello, Children's Tylenol.

Trevor's parents totally just set us on even ground financially. They paid all our past bills, and our rent for July. I was so happy and excited to be getting such a once in a lifetime second chance. But now I am worried is for naught because Trevor going to jail in Williamsburg for two days every week is killing us financially. The gas alone is 100 bucks. Then we have to pay 20 for him to be there. Then another 10 dollars a week if he wants to call me. ONCE. So right there is 130 dollars a week. Maggiano's isn't really bringing in the big dollars either, because the economy sucks and who the fuck eats italian food in the dead of summer anyway? Oh, I tell ya, I just LOOOOVEE a huge plate of alfredo sauce when it's 100 degrees outside. Anyway, point is, we're broke, and I don't want our second chance to vanish. Trevor and I are considering him just going and finishing his last 8 days all at once instead of him being gone for two days every week and spending so much money taking him there and picking him up. I am just worried that we will screw ourselves if he doesn't work at all for 8 days. Worry worry worry worry.

So, I found a location to buy this Webkinz lip gloss that Jen keeps raving about that I was secretly going to buy anyway before she got it.... Mapquest said it was 1.49 miles away. I'm thinkin' "I can walk 3 miles". So I load up the stroller and Lily and off we go (it's like, 90 something degrees IN VIRGINIA... which means humid also). Well, the walk there wasn't bad until I realized I went like half a mile in the wrong direction. Not too horrible. I turn around and go the right way. The right way happens to be a much harder walk with no sidewalk, bumpy terrain (remember... stroller) and it's a damn hill. Anyway, I traverse all these conditions and I'm like... It has GOT to be in that shopping center, I mean, there's a Ukrop's for chrissakes. In Virginia, there is like, ALWAYS a Hallmark by a Ukrop's. And there WAS a Hallmark by this particular Ukrop's. But there is not anymore. *Bangs head on glass of Hallmark". WHHHYYYYYYYYY. I walk like 4 miles to try and cheer myself up and it just made it worse. The walk home was almost unbearable. I mean, I knew the walk home would suck, but it would have been bearable had I been wearing some delightful mango or blueberry lip gloss. Actually, it would have been even more bearable if I had gotten home and was unlocking salon furniture right now. But I'm not.

I'm watching Noggin with Lily while she crawls around laughing wearing nothing but a diaper and waiting for her bath. She makes every day bearable when I think it really really blows. That and the fact that two of my friends have cancer, and dammit, at least I don't have cancer.

I want friends. Like, friends that call me and come over and we go out to dinner and sit around each other's houses like we live there. Friends that I can call and tell about the dumbest thing. Friends who can give me a hug when I'm done, or dammit, just a big excited hug when I see them.

Thank God America's Best Dance Crew is on tonight. Now, if Mario Lopez would just come down with a serious illness that will render him mute. The day would then be totally worth it.