I want to blog, but I don't. What do I blog about anyway anymore? Would everyone like to hear again how my day is like every other day? Geeeeee. I woke up, fed Lily. Played online, played with Lily. Lily takes a nap. Today I mowed the lawn. I like mowing the lawn because it's good exercise. Afterwards, I feel supremely exhausted. My plants are growing really well, but I think I might have run over some of my sprouting scallions with the lawn mower by accident. Anyway, back to the routine. Lily gets up, we eat lunch. We play some more. Today I went to the store. I stood for 10 minutes by the diapers trying to decide whether to spend 10 dollars and get 40 diapers, or 19 dollars for 104. Obviously, you can see which is the best deal, but when it's you're last 20 or 30 bucks the decision is difficult. Lily and I go home. We eat dinner. Bathtime. More playtime. Milk, Bedtime. More being attached to my laptop.
See, the thing is... I love my life. But it's SOOOOO mundane. And whenever I make plans to break the mundanity and do something with other people, I always back out. When the day comes to go BE with other people, I get all anxious and I start feeling like I don't want to go. I feel like I will go somewhere, be having a miserable time. Then I will want to leave but I won't be able to because it will be too early or would be considered rude. Kind of like I hate riding with other people to things because I want to control when I can leave.
I think I just need to go to sleep. I'm bored and tired of the dullness.
Not dead
17 years ago
2 comments:
oh man, I SO feel your pain. I do the same thing a lot. I like to drive so I can leave when I want, I'm a homebody so I don't really LIKE leaving the house. I am perfectly happy to play online all day. My friend Kara and I were supposed to go buy webkinz today but she isn't feeling well, so we may not be able to, which means another whole day in the house. I feel like a loser.
HOWEVER... we are not losers. we are hott and wonderful. I wish you lived close b/c we could totally go buy webkinz together. boo.
love ya lots and think you rocketh.
I seriously could have written most of this myself. Trying to decide about the diapers when it's your last 20 bucks? Yeah, been there. Backing out of social plans, even though I should really get out of the house? Been there. Sometimes I just don't feel like seeing anyone. Especially when they all have stuff to talk about and I'm like, yeah, so my kid did (fill in the blank). Isn't that cute? I feel like all I know how to talk about now is kids, fluff, or webkinz. None of which my friends have. So, yeah. I feel you, hun. *hugs*
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