Psycho Mom Rolls On

Well, what's new? Trevor, Lily and I went to see Umphrey's McGee and Sound Tribe Sector 9 Wednesday night at Innsbrook. I think, personally, it was my favorite show we've taken Lily to because Trevor wasn't all pissed off. We just ate some food, and played. There was a younger baby next to us, and Lily was ALL about that. She was grabbing her and sitting next to her. I think she thinks other babies are toys. Today, I was at Short Pump Town Center and they have this play area in the food court. There was only 1 other little girl in there when we went so I figured I would let her crawl around and pull herself up on all the stuff (giant plastic ice cream cone, giant soda bottle... you get the idea). Well, the other little girl was adorable, but mean. I mean, she was a little girl (3, I think) so she didn't know any better, but she hit Lily in the face (not hard enough for Lily to do anything) and then kicked her. Like, WTF?! It makes me hate other children when they are mean to my little Lily. I think I am too overprotective, actually. I come to this realization when I say things like... "I'll just learn to homeschool her" or "Why should she go to preschool?!". I mean, I'm all for her doing things like dance, or sports, and socializing with other children. I just don't want that time to be unsupervised by me. I guess I don't want other children's actions... or even adult's supervision that I don't know to influence how my child acts until she knows how to act on her own. I'm a psycho mom. Yes.

Anyway, we walked around the mall a while, and then I bought a gloss, of course, at Limited Too. I wish I had bought the toucan there, or maybe the alligator... or even the rottweiler, but they were marked sixteen bucks, so I didn't. The gloss was marked about 6 and it ended up being less than 4. Oh, well. I got a dalmation, instead, at Ben Franklin Crafts later. I also got the rest of PJ's stuff. I don't think she has this link, so I feel at liberty to discuss this with the warning to all of my readers that know her that if she finds out I will hate you all for life. Anyway, I got her this BBQ sauce that my family came up with the recipe for and then sold it during the Depression, and some cookbooks, some really neat beads because she makes earrings, an "Erica is Awesome" t-shirt, a couple of yoo-hoos, potato rolls, a little organizer thingie that's pink and black and says "So many shoes, so little time" on it, and also this little tiny foldy book thing that I made. It's like a miniature pre-made scrapbook or keepsake book that's basically paper folding a cool way to make a book with covers I made. Anyway, that plus her mouse webkinz and I'll be shipping out in a couple of days :D .

I enrolled in classes for the fall and now I'm very nervous. I just found out that my uniform is really only about 50 bucks, so that's half what I thought, but I have to pay for books and this tool kit things with knives and slicers and whatnot so that's probably going to be another 200, in a month. I'm nervous about money and Trevor's jail trip each week is costing us so much. Rent is due in 11 days and we have 50 dollars. :( I can't voice my concerns to Trevor because he already feels all the pressure of being the only source of income for our family. Thankfully, he had several more interviews this past week to find an hourly cooking job, and then he will work at Texas Road House, too. Or maybe Applebee's will hire him as a manager, since he has an interview for that. I just hope we have enough money to keep our heads above water, since we are barely treading water now, instead of sinking. It's time to really be disciplined with our money, which means I have to stop buying things like Webkinz (though I have done really well.... until today). You all hear me vow that I will not buy another one until August 1. Wait.... until the rent is paid. Yeah. So hopefully that gets done by August 1. Anyway, I'm worried about actually GOING to class. I mean, what if I'm not good? What if I look stupid? At least this is something I'm passionate about, and things are finally starting to move for me.

Plus, I still have to set aside the money for our weekend in Baltimore. I might end up not being able to go to actual Otakon, just the dinner and other, cheaper things with Trevor. It's going to be almost 70 bucks just to go see the fluff booth or whatever, and that's all I'm interested in. But I don't know if I'm interested in it enough to pay 70 bucks. I guess we'll see when we get there. I definitely still wanna go to Baltimore because it's a weekend away with Trevor, and I REALLY wanna go to the Hard Rock dinner. Note to self, must make the rest of gold for Trevor's reservation.

I have also officially made every solved recipe on Webkinz. It costs less than 3000kc. I'm such a nerd.

I think Lily wants to eat dinner now.