Life is Never Secret

Today I am nostalgic and I want my friend back. I read a note she posted on facebook regarding her finding this blog. She was appalled that she found no account of that fateful day that ended our friendship. Like I want to detail to everyone how shitty my marriage/husband is.

Looking back, it would be a great post to read over. "Oh, this is the day I ruined my friendship".

She was closer to me than my own sister. Months could go by and we might not speak but when we did everything was exactly where we left off.

I know that will never be again. Still, sometimes I sit around and daydream about starting a new friendship. You know, she calls me up and asks if I want to get a coffee and talk. We re-hash and slightly laugh about why we were mad to begin with. We catch up on each other's lives. We realize we've changed but for the better. We like a lot of the same things still.

Daydreams are for suckers. :/


I just got another job. Yes, I know. I am still doing work for C. at the catering company, but I also got a job at a new cafe opening in Short Pump in April. I am so excited to get a legitimate job at a new place... I get to open this place. I feel ownership already. Plus, the more I work, the less time I have to spend money, which really helps with my "saving money" plan.

Yesterday we took Lily to Maymont. It was her first time seeing real farm animals and it was so fun. Lately I have been REAAAALLY missing when she was a baby. You know, before 12 months. I miss how little she was. And quiet. And sweet. And innocent. I knew eventually she would make up for what a sweet baby she was. That time has come. However, I am excited to learn about her personality. She does the cutest things. She says the cutest things. The other major thing that happened yesterday: I converted her crib to a "transitional bed". She can now get out of bed in the morning and run into my room and say "Maaaamaaaaa? Whe aaaahh booo?" (Mama, where are you?) and "WeekaaahP!" (which means wake up!). This is absolutely the best way to be woken up in the morning.

I should be compiling a list of things she says because they are all entertaining.

She says Waffle "Offuff", LOOK!, a myriad of easy words, and is also trying to say the ABC song anytime she hears it. She can count to five. She can dribble a soccer ball across the yard. I don't know what 18 month old kids are supposed to be able to do, but she does a lot. She talks.. A LOT. Mostly gibberish, but everyday more and more of it actually makes sense.

She throws tantrums. A lot of them, lately. Pretty much anytime the word "NO" is said to her equals a tantrum. I hope this is what kids are supposed to do. I would say that she is happy, smiling and fun 90% of the time. The other 10% must surely be pure demon. You would agree if you saw.

I am ready to eat lunch. I have updated every journal I own today and I feel very productive having done so.