Go Round & Round

Friday felt like the start of a new era for me. Well, actually, moving into the house felt like a new era. Then, Trevor and I starting with a "clean slate" felt like a new era. Now, losing my job at RAC feels like a new era. Trevor's idea was to work in the kitchens at Mag's in the mornings for 40 hours a week (about 15 more hours than I was working) and making a dollar more an hour. Then, he has some connections and thinks he can bartend at Havana a few nights a week. Either way, he would be bringing in more money than when I was working. So... I am now... a housewife. I'm not sure yet if I'm going to go crazy not working at all. I do like the idea of being in control of the house and the errands and responsibilities. I kind of like the idea that he is just responsible for making money and being a good father and husband. I am afraid that he is going to hold it against me... that I don't make money. Does it even out? When one partner does all the home stuff and one brings home all the money... is that a fair trade? Anyway, he suggested this whole idea, so I guess we're going to give it a try.

Today is Saturday. We went grocery shopping this morning. Grocery shopping with Trevor is like shopping with perhaps a 5 or 6 year old. Halfway through they get all cranky and annoyed and hard to deal with... and the other half of the time is spent asking if we can buy ridiculous things that we don't have money for... and then pouting when I say no because we can't afford it. I guess it's good practice for when Lily gets older... but Lily is so sweet, I can't see her ever acting like that (though I'm sure she will). I wasted most of the rest of the day, but after Lily went down this evening, I "spring" cleaned some things. I organized the cabinets in the kitchen because Trevor just throws everything in them all helter-skelter. Then, I did all the dishes and cleaned the rest of the kitchen. I also cleaned the rest of the house, did all the floors, and all the laundry. I'm sort of OCD, I think. I can only relax if my environment is neat and orderly.

I wonder if there are legitimate work-at-home opportunities. I don't want to make, like, SERIOUS, cash... just have something to do and maybe profit from it.

I want to start my gardening this week. And go re-apply for Medicaid and foodstamps. I don't find that embarrassing... I feel like if the help is available, I should take advantage of it, right?

Who in the world is going to be interested in reading the diary of a young housewife...?